Ready, Set, Wait!

As I was heading into my last week of CentriKid ever, it hit me that I would be graduating in December and that I need to figure out what's going to happen next. Remember the scene in Home Alone when Macauley Culkin puts the aftershave on his face, puts both of his hands on his cheeks, and screams? That's about how I was feeling...

Redirected.

I have options, but this past week, I got redirected from one of them in a BIG way. It was more than a shut door. It was slammed in my face. Painful! But one thing I am thankful for is that God has a purpose for everything, although it frustrates me that I don't always get to know what that purpose is.

So I'm waiting. Again.

I'm waiting to know what's next. Who knows where I'll be living and what I'll be doing post-graduation, but December 7 (yes, I graduate on the 60th anniversary of the bombing of Pearl Harbor) is quickly approaching.

I'm waiting for Mr. Right. And who knows how long I'll be waiting on this one or even if there is someone whom God has for me.

During our last staff worship at camp, I shared with our team from Deuteronomy 8, and in it, God tells His people to remember how He has led them, to remember how He has provided for them, to remember to give Him the praise that He is due, and to beware of disobedience. As He reminds them of the manna in the wilderness, He tells them that He fed them with manna in order to humble them, to see what was in their hearts, to determine whether or not they would obey Him. They wanted the food of Egypt, but instead, they got heavenly bread, which wasn't what they wanted. But God was doing 2 things: (1) He was giving them what they needed. (2) He was using this to refine them. Wilderness moments - and I'm equating waiting with the wilderness, especially since Israel was sent to the wilderness for 40 years of waiting/wandering - are seasons when God shows us the content of our hearts. The wilderness is an opportunity to grow in intimacy with the Lord. The wilderness is a place where you see that your greatest need is for God, and although you may not get what you want, He does provide what you need.

And He is enough.

That's what I keep having to remind myself right now. He is enough at all times, even in the wilderness and even in my waiting.

He IS enough.